Inextricable knot

Hi jasper

2011-07-20T12:23:00.001+08:00

You're the only idiot that still come back here when you're bored.

Hehe luv ya sis!

March post

2010-03-20T04:43:00.000+08:00

Still at wordpress hehe :)
Happy birthday bez!

Vd + Cny

2010-02-08T15:23:00.003+08:00

Advance Valentine day + Cny wishing!!!!

I am still in Wordpresssssssss

Have not have any intention to swift back to blogger so far (miracle)

Please be happy everyone! I'm just a phone away :):)

Wordpress

2010-01-12T21:08:00.004+08:00

Http://kel2y.wordpress.com

Don't bother relinking (unless you don't mind my ficklemindedness),

i think i'll be back here before long. Oh well.

Like whoa

2010-01-10T18:21:00.007+08:00

Hi, looking @ my schoolmates' lives are depressing. Cause my life is contrasting to theirs. Theirs are like.... rich + happening (x infinity), then look at mine. Boring. Ok my life is what i think it is: Oh yay! i've the most happening + happy life everyone is envy of me mwahahaha!!!! (.... it'll come true)

My face is flushed pink. I wonder if it's my red national day shirt (haha i wearing it as homeclothes now, LOL) or 'cause i'm feeling really warm right now hmm... gtg and start entertaining my long queue of fans (bio, math, eng, chi, hist, ss.... and whatsnot)

Workload

2010-01-09T18:15:00.010+08:00

Hi lucky people who still have time to use the computer when your fellow human is being killed by homeworks here. AND I STILL have to go/went chalet during the weekends. STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!!!

Have to finish these by monday:

1. ~~4 Bio quizzes~~

2. Eng webquest

3. Bio essay qns

4. Bio tys

5. Chem Q.A and mole ws

6. Bio ws

7. Maths qns

Back to school

2010-01-08T19:26:00.004+08:00

Next week is gonna be better

- No more upsetting hair (why does everyone's hair seem so obedient?!)

- No more flunking of test like today's bio

- I can't remember

Rushing off to alan's chalet now, buaiz

P.S I should stop envying everyone, AT ALL. How not to?

Pissed

2010-01-05T22:16:00.009+08:00

Imagine the frustration doing everything for 6 hours plus continuously, yet it all amounts to nothing.... that's how i'm feeling now!!!! can like really kill a tiger lor :(

AND i don't like (ok, i'm lying) to see flithy rich kids' blogs where

they can take such breath-taking pictures of j.u.s.t their daily life

'Cause i'll be so tempted to take shots like that when i've no need for a camera

And then i've to stop myself and chase the temptation and admiration away.

Same world, different lives. Such is life.

Dad's 51

2010-01-05T02:02:00.008+08:00

Look in the mirror and see a retard

Happy birthday daddy!!

Watched avatar 3d on sunday night. First time watching 3D

A MUST-WATCH SHOW. I haven't been certain about a show (being nice) for a long time!

I'm positive i'll be slaughtered tmr in the morning - too tired for school

Above!

2010-01-02T23:24:00.007+08:00

I'm so grateful for my father, really.

How many fathers actually bother cleaning up their daughter's shit? (Ok, not mine but you get my point) Here's the thing. I.... stepped on shit at the bottom of my doorstep. This horrid small pile of shit from (i presume) a freaking inconsiderate cat. Reason #1922843653 why i hate cats, (rolls eyes). Actually it's horribly funny only if it wasn't me who stepped it! hahahaha and yes my dad just cleaned it without words, love.him.so.much P.S i threw the old school shoe away since it was spoiling anw

Am officially back @ dare! :) Self-note: Attend dare regularly - go camp + israel this year!!!!! <3

2010

2010-01-01T23:31:00.020+08:00

Countdown this year wasn't high nor bad

haha atleast that's what i told people who asked

We went clarke quay but didn't reach the actual countdown place so the atmosphere wasn't quite there, unlike last year where the dancefloor was crazily high. I've no idea why everyone was wearing that horn thing @ Clarke quay, but we joined in the fun (thus explaining the retarded horns!) I still don't get the link between horns and new year though, horns just seem more appropriate for halloween to me. those clever sellers sure earned alot of fast $$ from those horns!

Caught "Did you hear about the Morgans" after that, and well.. did you? I did, hahahaha! i think it'll hold meaning if you watched with your lover, since you can hug and kiss as the morgans did, lol. ^^

Happy 2010!

2009-12-31T14:55:00.015+08:00

Things that made 2009...

1. 3R4'09

2. Breakfast companions

Ok what can i say, these are the silly people who have been sacrificing once-a-week's morning extra sleeptime to go breakfast with everyone! hahahaha well, atleast that's how our friendships started! :)

3. Shuqi, yonghao, jasper

Thanks for always being there and always being really sweet people :) You guys had text such nice stuffs then even when i'm feeling low, it never fails to bring back a smile to my face. I know i don't say this much but.... i love you all! :$ "awww, taoyan ~"

4. Family

I can't think of anything better to say except I LOVE THEM.

5. Alan, benson, marcus

Why we suddenly started hanging out is actually quite amazing, it just happened like that. Haha thanks for making up this holiday guys!! we might not be in contact much once this holiday ends so... thanks for the memories, all the best tc! :)

6. Lovely bitches

You again, i see you every year now. HAHAHAHAHA just kidding. I don't have to say much, you know how i love you guys!!!

This year just passed by in a blink. If i didn't looked thru my previous blog on 2009, i really already forgotten all the fun times i'd in 2009. I thought life this year was totally boring, well can't blame me since towards the end of year life was so uneventful... haha i just didn't thought i actually had fun before all these! So I can't say 2009 was the best year, but i survived it and i can't wait for 2010!

HAPPY 2010!!!!!

Christianity

2009-12-30T02:50:00.012+08:00

I feel i just had one of the most productive talk with dearest, she has just totally boost my faith!!!!

God please help my unbeliefs, I want to know you for who you're

I need to encounter you. Please lead me ~

(edit/6.07pm) I can't seem to get my lazy butt off the chair. My mind is screaming at how hell of a deadmeat i am right now but my butt is staying put. Helpless. late for basketball again! AGAIN

Gotta be somebody

2009-12-28T16:40:00.005+08:00

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Time is so merciless :( i'm left with one week and then i'll have to give in my life to studies for a year = no life. Come next year i'm gonna study so hard i'm gonna be sucha boring person yet time is not taking pity on me :( this holiday is ending far too abruptlyyyyyyy i haven't done anything!

Need.to.catch.as.much.fun.as.possible.within.this.short.frame.of.time.

Should.stop.wasting.time.on.the.laptop.whining.and.complaining.to.a.screen.

Btw caught "Bodyguard and assassin" and "the Fourth kind" yst. The first was about china, the second about some alien/lunatic show. The concept is sth like paranormal activity, only much much better (since paranormal activity was total crap) hehehehe

Dental

2009-12-26T15:46:00.003+08:00

Was trying to imitate my bro's expression and

I just realize how much this look like constipated face 8)

Merry X'mas

2009-12-26T15:09:00.010+08:00

Bbq yst was just your average screwedup bbq, total disaster

Self-note: Rem never to buy fairprice brand of charcoal.

Hope everyone had fun!! :)

So anw, my biggest takeaway this christmas is.... BRUISE AND BLUEBLACKS. The lower part of my body is aching like mad :'(

Let's see...

- fell down (hard!) 3 times in total

- played whackwhack with alan's slipper and now i've two really big patches of blueblack on both legs

Seems like my body was aching for presents too huh. Such painful presents :'(

I'll edit this space again when i've pictures from joelle :) though we didn't take much

Swimming

2009-12-24T00:59:00.004+08:00

Few days back

I think i've a liking for retarded photos, hmmm.... anw am going bbq-camping tonight yay! hope the christmas celebration later on will be a blast. No hiccups please. I think mom prepared too much food though, basically that's what happens when she's in-charge haha. O'yeah, please don't rain tonight!!

Merry x'mas everyone! :)

Bangs

2009-12-20T19:21:00.005+08:00

Hi, i cut bangz

I wonder if it's a bad or good news,

but....

i was just kidding. Hehe bored @ home, going basketball nao! :)

Wr's class picnic

2009-12-19T23:32:00.005+08:00

Nice drawing! ^^

Hi! I followed bez to her class picnic as part of a deal with her today

We agreed that if i accompanied her, she'd accompany me to swim! :)

The majority of the people were late since we were all caught up in the rain.

Wr and me contributed OCK curry puffs. Aloy bought TOO much noodles!!

Alan fetched us from prp to changi, couldn't go further because of me (Sorry guys! :( hate it when it's me)

After prata was OCH. I've never wanted to be involve in such stuffs, tonight was the first time going in

Was rather interesting, feel like going in play catching someday!

While leaving we scared this group of malays, mwahahaha

After that alan brought us to some 'nice and romantic' places, lol

I'm starting to feel hungry. Gosh this spells trouble :(

Idiom

2009-12-18T17:35:00.010+08:00

Hi! I was helping mummy to make a list of idioms etc for the game charades when i came across this idiom which i never known.

"Flip the bird: To raise a middle finger at someone."

Hahahaha. Next time i shall just go "flip the bird" to any idiot who make me jumping mad! >:)

Yunqian's @ woodlands

2009-12-16T18:55:00.026+08:00

I'm sure the girls agree with me that last night was absolutely crazy!

It was so power-filled with different kinds of emotions, man.

We managed to bbq with the help of 2 umbrellas! and i started the fire, first time 'kay :)

So, vodka with greentea is not my cup of tea.

It's the kind of sweet taste which lingers in your mouth that i detest, gag pukey

Played finger-guessing games and down one shot, pure vodka makes the throat hot!

At 7am we went swimming and got 7 complaints from the rich-brats-residents and had to leave the pool

Even though we went in only for like what, 10mins? Noise as well as improper swim-wears. Rofl, sorry yunqian!!

P.S Pictures spam!

She's damn adorable! but very playful

Meet the brother

Blank

2009-12-13T14:54:00.009+08:00

These days it feels like i gave a prized one away

Maybe this is how life goes, "friends come and go" everyone used to say. I never trusted them.

It's only experiencing it time and again thru the years that i actually believed in it

It seems sometimes we just have to learn the hard way, don't we?

Fall hard, lesson learnt better. 心酸

Everyone just need that wake up call to reality. Mine arrived.

And in the end, i still felt it was better to post this up

Get it over and done with

After today, (cross fingers) no more issue with this. Please.

Happy

2009-12-11T23:56:00.013+08:00

Hi, today is greatly favored :)

1) managed to win $3 in mj (thanks to last few rounds) despite losing like shxt before that

2) An uncle gave me 70c for bus fare w/o taking my $2

P.S the world can do with more of such kindness, God bless his kind soul!

3) the aunty at the shop treated me kangkong f.o.c

4) my mum told me my starhub plan can change a new phone already

YES I WANT MORE OF SUCH DAYS

只想做自己

2009-12-11T01:42:00.008+08:00

Met usuals for basketball in the morning

Reached an hour later though, sorry guys!

After that was ktv with this monkey who is nuts right now

She keep "yuppie" "yea" "yes" me in msn! and laughing haha that nutcase

Okay, ktv was short :( too short to have max fun. 2 hours only

P.S max fun reminds me of cui max, tsk! (tsk too reminds me of alan) :/

We ate this japanese restaurant which we regretted at the first bite

:'( $$$

"When you love someone, there is no space for hatred.

Love forgives, love prevails, despite everything."

Don't bother reading

2009-12-09T04:49:00.005+08:00

Someone save me, i must be crazy haha

I've been laughing to the screen for the past 10mins

I mean really, really laugh out loud. HAHAHAHA!

Ok, i'm not saying what it is because i'm damn lag.

Look at the time! :( i'm still not even halfway thru, how?!

You see, i woke up at 4.30pm today (so horrible!), thanks to a retarded dream.

i'd post it up but bez said halfway while i was describing my dream to her, "i didn't know hearing dreams were so boring, to think i still kept telling ppl my dream. (laughs)" Wah, super hurt my feelings! :(

O'yeah i only realized today what kthxbai means. WIN

手掌印 - 江若琳

2009-12-08T03:43:00.003+08:00

要是我重头拣选下个　

明显都是错　情感可控制么

我习惯无人好好待我　

唯一伤害过　而且牺牲太多

我若试图忘记一种痛楚　

然而回忆迫使背负更多

宁愿你杀掉我　就当我上了一课　

做个好心分手彼此都不要拖

明明你根本称不上值得我的吻

别再忍　好应该摆脱伤心的噩运

而情感　怎么给踩过也不沉　

偏要酷爱着你这坏人

为何我即使给掌掴没有太不愤

随便笑　去讽刺我脸上的手掌印

原因　应该出于情难自禁　

总要是记着你这坏人的一吻

这段感情无非伤得太多　

面上唯一手掌印在唱歌

提醒我你犯错　别再放纵你找我　

就当好心分开今天可干脆么

Even if the sky falls down

2009-12-06T20:54:00.004+08:00

Basketball today was shit, just like the mess i am right now. What am i doing? this is leading me nowhere, but both ways lead to misery. Being helpless somehow i still did it in the end. Stop floating kelly, start being there when you're there. I'm just ruining my life and making life difficult for myself. Yet... it's the same either way. Why do i think like that, why.

Nightlife

2009-12-05T05:45:00.015+08:00

The last two pictures are totally unrelated to tonight. I just put it there since some granny just sent them to me today, and i feel like posting them haha. The day before yst (since now's 6.23am), bro got bez to stayover. But anw thru out the night he just read his manga, hence i don't see any purpose of getting her over hmm. And although we attempted to do hw, i wouldn't say it was productive. righhhht wanrong >:( so much for "i really will do"! Turn in at 4 plus and slept till 3plus.

Last min in the night we decided to accompany thong at her chalet for awhile. Cycled there at 11plus, chitchat awhile there and went to subway. Just realized the subway at dte is 24hours on fri sat and public holidays, awesomez! finally felt like myself again after subway heh. i wish i can lock this feeling so it doesn't run away and turn me upside-down. Cycled back and homed @ 5 am.

P/s love the morning breeze!! <3

P/p/s i'm seeing the sky light up, every holiday does this to me!! late nights!

S & M celebration

2009-12-03T01:17:00.007+08:00

Ops i forgot to update. Today, or rather yst, was spent celebrating marcus (30nov) and shuqi (1dec) birthdays. Initial planning of bowling was switched to arcade by the boys. There was this girl who drove the car racing game until damn faaarni! couldn't stop laughing. It's kinda cute actually. ;) After that we had hei sushi and we stayed there for 2hours plus. I'm still not sure if the cake's halal, wth. But we still cut the cake there lol. Sorry dearest! I'd no idea 21 doesn't stop at interchange! that's why nobody should ever trust my sense of direction. Basketball court today was crowded oh well.

My face is getting horrendously fatter in pictures. So worrying. :(

A silent prayer

2009-12-02T20:53:00.010+08:00

This is gonna be wordy.

I feel i need some major change in my life now. Anything just whatever. I don't know if it's the moods, but man i've been sucha difficult person to hangout with these days. I know i've been one, sorry. It's just that sometimes it's really nice if instead of picking on your imperfections, people made you feel better about yourself. It's not that i can't take frank feedbacks but i'm only human, i need encouragements too. Yet sadly, i... am used to it. I have to love myself to love others, so do i love myself with the constantly being pointed out flaws? It only adds to the already existing challenge and enquiry. Also, you know how you feel like you haven't been a dear to somebody and decide to change to be a better person so that history doesn't repeat itself? Somehow in the end, you'd end up feeling miserable and stuck in your own shit.

I'm sick of this same occurrence in my life, i want a change. I don't wanna be bothered, i don't wanna be sensitive, i don't wanna care. I want to be as nonchalant as everyone, how such things doesn't ever pose as a trouble to them. The best thing is you're so affected but no one ever knows what it is. So, is it me?

I hope nobody ever feels this way, it's so empty. It has gotten quite bad that most times i just feel like throwing away the phones. Everything's just different, it hurts me to see how things changed. And the clothes.. i am sick of people commenting. Sigh, it almost feels like you'd pile every single shit inside you and years later when you want to differentiate these shits, you found you'd already lost the ability to. You're just like this, blank. An empty shell.

What is wrong with me

2009-12-01T21:04:00.011+08:00

I'm scared of myself, i'm scared of how my mind can't control my emotions anymore. I'm scared of how i'm losing control of myself. This emptiness is so overwhelming... I need to be in control. I really need to. I don't want to lose anyth but i keep losing myself... pls stop kelly.

P/S Happy birthday dearest! <3 You're finally 15 hehe start behaving like one! ;)

Safra

2009-11-30T01:41:00.003+08:00

Yst was safra day ha. Minds cafe > Pool > "Da Chang Jin" with parents while the others went bowling. DCJ is this advertisement steamboat bbq place. One time off, not going back there again. The ma la soupbase totally turns me off omg it's like chilly oil, yucks.

4th week

2009-11-27T20:45:00.003+08:00

hi it's scary how it is already halfway thru the holiday when it feels like hol really just started. Hai. :( how do we squeeze everyth within one month?! I'm so angry very angry very very angry with myself. i feel like locking myself home for the next month and study full-swing to punish myself. Ha ha bullshit it never happens. I don't have time for myself. I don't have time for homeworks (I've not touched it! what a joke to think about finishing them early this year for a change) Needless to say, my study plan have not even started.

This is so retarded but i'm so angry yet i'm still not doing shit about it :(

Basketball camp

2009-11-25T18:29:00.005+08:00

"It's okay to try and fail, than to never try at all."

Basketball camp was alright, i learnt a new game H20 where we ran like mad chickens. Sort of know everyone's names now. And i don't feel that much out of place as from the start, yay. Anw i am motivated to improve in basketball, i must start to bring in the ball and tackle the ball. Perseverance, jiayou!

Need confidence, confidence

Pictures spam

2009-11-21T19:14:00.016+08:00

hi! i think macbook is like math. You're highly irritated with it when you can't figure the problem, but after spending very long (hours!) on it and figuring it out, the accomplishment is there heh. Ok i'm gonna update with whatever pictures i've, try my best. P/s I don't know why but we've been hanging out alot with alan, benson and marcus!

Benson's chalet

Webcam

S.H.E autograph session (alan's idols)

Studying sessions

Life

2009-11-19T01:36:00.004+08:00

K i shall leave everything for tmr or the day after, not enuf time ha. Tmr have trg, and i wanna go so have to catch ample slp now teehee! though i don't know how i'm gonna slp having woke up at 4plus in the aftnoon :/ bye

You create your own path, everything in life is how you construct it to be.

Life is a process and everyone's learning this game of life.

Your life is really how you think it is. Nobody can help you if you're not willing to help yourself.

How to kill a hippopotamus

2009-11-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

Imac is sucha pretty baby, but i can't really get myself to rejoice in it since i've been meddling with it for hours, trying to find a good version of msn messenger for imac. Apparently there's a software called "ichat" in imac, but i'll have to use AIM.com instead of hotmail.com, meaning i've to change email. Nobody seems to even heard of AIM.com before, much less use it. Gosh, who uses imac out there? how do they survive with imac? which msn version do they use? :(

My imac arrived the day before yst, and i only started exploring it today. Haha kinda amazing that i can actually control myself. Yup, day 1 and it's alr squeezing the shit outta me. Think i'll post afew posts aftwards, have lots to catch up about, am gonna try my utmost best. I don't wanna look back at my blog someday and have no idea what happened to me during this period of lack of updates haha first thing to start, save the skin template.

Quick one

2009-11-11T18:31:00.002+08:00

Hi! Omg my blog is under crisis right now, the person who created this blogskin obviously exceeded her photobucket photo limit so my blog's horribly disfigured right now. Hahahahaha it looks ridiculously funny though, ha ha ha ha ha. I'll just leave it as it is for now because i've no time now! I'm alr late for basketball.

I'll update again real soon! I got an imac, gonna collect it in afew days time when there's stock. Pls tell me imac is good :(

Why?

2009-11-06T10:21:00.009+08:00

What am i, a substitute?
Why, why do people always make me feel so unimportant?
Why does this emptiness never go away?
Why am i so unimportant?
Why am i always inferior?
Why don't people ever know they are the cause of this?
Why why why why why why why why why...
why am i bothered by them?

Missed school today only to find these haunting me when i woke up. Sorry i just had to spill it out.

Reminisce

2009-11-04T14:41:00.004+08:00

Back to when friends were only about fun and laughters
When life was like a rollercoaster ride, up and down, at full speed.

Sad to see the way things are

2009-11-03T16:59:00.003+08:00

OH suddenly i rem that i've a lg phone and there are pictures there. The problem with it being retarded is it keeps pissing me off (ok one period of time) with it's inability to send out messages. So after afew hours of waiting for replies, i'll manage to find all my sent messages in the outbox. Super infuriating. But now as i'm ranting i miss that phone haha. Ok i shall give it one more chance after this.

Ok for basketball now, bye

(9.42pm) Seriously, what have got into me lately. I don't feel like myself anymore, gotta find myself back

忍

2009-11-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hi! yst we had this ultra lastmin plan to Kbox at 8plus. So it was this big room for 6 people: bro, wr, jas, joey, alan, me. There was a big jam at dte man, i felt bad troubling dad and made them get caught in the jam. Ok to add on, we troubled dad at 3plus again! :z But anw, I guess our $35 was more well-spent than the other kbox-users cuz we'd extended time from 12 till 3am. Hehe must be cause i was there (winkwink), you guys better be grateful ^^

Have been losing myself lately, have been having extremely mixed feelings lately, have been overwhelmed with jealousy lately, time to take control.

2009-10-31T13:03:00.000+08:00

I sort of miss blogger hehe. Happy halloween! :) Sg don't really celebrate it though. I hope tonight turns out alright, everything's unplanned with girls having some disagreements on the venue. Man, wish we can go arnd giving candies though, or just do sth fun and extreme. Hmm unlikely. This blog's still not up. Ok i'm blogging aimlessly haha, gotta go do stuffs before bro's back. God bless him for his O's, i'm really worried for him. Sigh i know he'll pull through, it'll work out for him. Goodluck for O's!

Hope i get a laptop soon! I'm so disconnected from the world.

418th post

2009-10-30T17:06:00.000+08:00

Created a new blog, decided to come back to blogger
Am just gonna use tumblr as an alternative i guess
Oh, i'm back into basketball trgs. Teo soon ann asked me back. So weird, so weird
idk if it's the vodka but i feel lousy, i feel i can force tears out yet laugh at the same time. Haha so ridiculous.
Shit what is with me? i think i'll dlt this post

Pls contact me soon bitchy. I need to get out of the house.